it has being a long time since i last post.schooling has being so boring.everyday having so many remedial lesson.leave school as late as around 6pm.had lesser and lesser time seeing my dar.that what i hate most.longest without seeing each other is 2 weeks like that lo.just met him yesterday.as going to school for lesson.wonder when is the next time seeing him again.how i wish he can 24 hours by my side.my hand is giving me a huge problem.hardly can move much.somemore i bend and take things it will hurt so much..i had endure the pain for many hours.since last night la.had a horrible sleep last night.my hand hurts that i hardly get to sleep..somemore when i finaly get to sleep.i was awake by a horrible dream.see my phone for the timing.i realise i only slept for 1 hour plus.why must i have the hprrible dream.at this moment..do i really forsee this problem coming up.

how i wish i can ignore her pressence la.i know to dar that whatever i say is stupid now la.cause he had stop thinking about it.but what about her.so what she got bf already.does that mean he got bf she would have stop thinking of you?this dream will it come true?i dont want it to come true eh.once it really come true.my dar will not be by side anymore.she would have took him away.my mind can just stop flashing her?i hate it.i am so sorry that i mentioning her again and again.but i just cant stop thinking about it.even it has already past for 1 year plus alreadx.dar.can understand my feeling?you know.crying is the only thing i can do now.cause i really scare to lose you.