Baby had been overseas for 2 days already. 2 days.this 2 days really hard to endure..but there is nothing i can do to faster the day.but must thanks to those who accompany me this 2 days.luckily with you all around to kill my boredness..accompany me to text and even out with me to buy gifts and everything.listen to my nonsense.today is christmas eve le.tml is christmas le.another year of christmas which is kinda bored.last yr i was not around in singapore.this yr is baby turn who is not in singapore.i really hope that there is one yr that we both can spend all the festival together.will next yr be the yr?

yesterday waited for baby you to come online to see my offline msg.
i not sure whether isit there is not internet for you to come online or you are too tired to do so.
i not sure how are you doing now over there.
all these feeling are just like when we seem to be separated unwillingly just like the past.
last time is i hurt baby alot.now is the other way round.
i know baby are not gonna leave me alone forever.
but i dont sense the security.baby's promise seems to be easily broken.
many worries are in my mind.
i need more courage to face all different difficulties.
i need to be more brave and learn to be independent.

many things happened last night.do you see what i left for you at the msn.
do you know at that moment.i really hope you can suddenly appear infront of me to console me.
do you know is my first time overcoming this alone.
do you know i put a fake face to everythings that i went thru last night.
how i wish when the quarrel take place, i able to tell you immediately.
so you can text me back and tell me.is okay..dont bother about it.
everything make me feel so extra in the world without you.


today many things happened as well.
i did not able to finish shopping for the christmas gift that i wanted to buy.
not sure whether tml i able to go out and buy it.
my mummy all today came back late.as if there are still many hours for the day.
today morning without baby text early in the morning.i unable to wake up on time to meet rubin.
is like many thing getting weird without baby's by my side for these few days.
can the time pass even faster?everything i use to see my phone for baby's text.
now i dont.i would rather throw my phone aside just to forget he is not around.
many things i unable to achieve alone.like letting the time pass.
i am trying to my best to plan lots of activities that wont make me bored.
i would rather spend more time outside.and let time pass.come back home atlest wont be alone.
miss those nights that i spend talking on the phone with baby.those call make me sleep better.
these two days i unable to fall alseep so easily cause without the phone.
yesterday i fall alseep around 2 just to turn around on the bed to get asleep.
hopefully tonight wont be like that again ba.just take it that baby is in camp.
many things happened and i learn to stand firm.
just met yan ling.she pass me christmas gift.and yet.i never bought any for her.
maybe tml buy for her.recieve one text from her and i am glad to see that few words.
i think i gonna stop here.if not when baby is back.he will have to read for a long time to finish just one post.
gonna wrap all the giftsssss..
baby's gift i will pass him when he is back and i promised i will make it before he is back.
i love you baby.
i miss you baby.
i need you baby.
muackssssssss.