today is christmas.everyday post here is cause i got alot of words for baby.today got 2 cousin ask me about baby.i was like why must they ask.i am already suffering without baby in singapore.this is what the conversation:
me: sister, can help me get my hp.
cousin: who text?boyfriend ah?
me:errr..nope..is nazirah..bf not in singapore.
after i say she kept quiet.i am like so hurt.
just unwraped all the gifts.i will rather not to have any gifts than without baby by my side.tml gonna start doing the cross stitch again.had stop doing for so many days.cause for the past few days i still unable to settle my heart down and not to think about baby.hopefully by tml i able to do so.today.something happen.and yet.i am the victim again.everything happened and i am is the victim.how can they like that.i am like so hurt lo.have they ever consider my feeling?why must be when baby is not around and so many things happened?is like when i need him so much by my side lo.
tml i gonna go out with winona to tampines.i dont wanna stay at home.i rather go out and spend my time outside.this will make me feel better.gonna look for dress for tuesday's wedding dinner.

can someone tell me isit i am being so stupid to wait every night for him to come online?but this is the only way that i able to know how is he.no matter how late i also willing to wait.but the problem is the timing over there is 6 hours of difference.when is midnight 2 to 3.there is only 8 to 9 pm lo.oh maybe the hotel that he is staying does not have any wireless internet.that make him unable to sign in to leave me any offline msg.am i really silly to wait?can anyone understand what i feel?how can they simply say that aiya,10 days very fast over de la.althought 10 days can be say is quite short but my heart is like cant endure.how i wish tml is 1st jan already lo.so i can see my baby le lo.but i think these 10 days maybe is a test for us.let us see whether our love can endure the test not.maybe cause during these 1 year plus with him.we went thru alot of hardship.so i tresure him more than towards any of my ex.he is just too important to me.
okay.i shall stop here.post again tml night.hope miracle happened.
i love baby and miss baby alot alot.

do He hear my prayer?
my word to Him is so important.
does He heard my words to him?